Ten: The philosophy in Trust

Ten is special because it is one of my recent writing and I have not much explanation to it so enjoy!!

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Trust

In a person where trust is very crucial, it is hard to find one since they don't have the belief in opening up to anyone in any way. Isn't that the suffering in a human emotional state and the psychological state as well?

Me as a person, trust is something I lack and would need to move on from. When was the last time you actually trust someone so good that you can tell them everything. I had 4, only 4 people who I can do that towards. Yet recently as life get tougher for everyone, I learn facts that is undeniable towards my own eyes, lies and lies that breaks trust for them, where I just see more and more at the truth in trust and its contrast, Lies.

We are people who had learn to grow towards different length to keep secrets depending on the person and its importance in the secrets. However some people tend to just reveal people' secret in hopes of power and popularity in our modern age. In exchange, their satisfactory in power had caused many problems towards many like me who has trouble in trust due to these type of people. Sadly, even themselves sometimes cannot notice and realize any of this.

How do we detect lie in our mind? We virtually cannot tell if someone is lying unless they are a person who have trouble in keeping things to themselves. We detect their lies by their tone and movement that we gotten from them, someway somehow, someone can never keep a secret from long and it would need to be shared to another. This is how secret normally is spread and why no one, NO ONE can keep any secret. This philosophical thought have caught me and stop me from moving forward in telling my private thoughts to anyone or maybe even made myself share it to prevent hurting and betrayal behind my back.

Yet the longer we hold a lie, the deeper it cuts into us and the ignorance of it will be detected sooner or later unless you lose the part of the memories of your lies that is in you, you will never feel comfort and sooth through your heart but isn't that just life? The word "trust" just become a mere Lip service. It had conquered people that even you may have trust issues with people where you use laughter to hide it or your feeling to be so open to everyone that you would have no secret to keep from anyone. Yet the reaction from that is the betrayal from your friends where they start to take advantage and use you.

I have no solution, No solution on any of this yet I only can say to find close friends where you would laugh and cry together. It would be hard because opening up may not be the most eye opening thing u want to do, yet the love through trust and the relaxation would satisfy the heart and rest your soul and it would not hurt as it usually would. Even though the possibility of them not being with you soon is there, just enjoy the moment and trust that they will still keep the secret they promise when they leave. Because life is nothing when there is no glimpse of hope and love through people.

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